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At Ease in Your Own Shell

At Ease in Your Own Shell

“Try to be like the turtle, at ease in your own shell.” – Bill Copeland 🐚🌊

…even if that means looking absurd for a sec because you really want a pic with seashells in your hand. Shout out to my bestie Caitlin for waiting until the ocean water was just right to take this. πŸ’πŸΌπŸ“Έ

But seriously, I love this quote. I think for so many writers and creatives this is *the* challenge. To just “be” can be a very difficult thing. I’ve gotten better at it over the years but not without a great deal of effort, attention to it, and therapy (so much wonderful therapy). But it is possible to grow in this area.

I used to feel so confused about who I was when I was alone. That’s why I’d lean into my extroversion and go to as many social gatherings and parties as possible because then I could be “outgoing Linda,” or “funny Linda,” or “flirty Linda.” But it was all acting, and acting 24/7 gets really tiring.

I’m happy to say, I don’t act as nearly as much as I used to. Every now and then I still have to fake some confidence, but I’ve realized the reason I love being home more than I used to and the reason I’ve become much more of an introvert over the past two years is that I no longer feel confused or scared about who I am when I’m alone. I’m no longer freaked out by my own depression or in denial of its existence. I’ve found help and resources and I’m on a much more self-accepting path. I’d say I’m getting much better at just being.